Random Thoughts On A Tuesday Morning

I just finished my first cup of WS pumpkin spice ground coffee and it was... well, it was something. Maybe it's because I typically don't eat things with added sugar, but this seems so mid I'm actually underwhelmed. I don't see myself drinking it again, so now I have an excuse to visit the store for a more logical coffee blend to sip first thing in the morning.

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I'm still having the occasional sleeping issues, and I'm chalking it up to the family drama concerning my brother. For every night I get a solid six hours of sleep, it seems like I'll get one with far less. This is no fun. 

Neither is the realization of what I'm looking for. More on that towards the end.

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For the past few weeks, I really haven't played video games. I think I touched GTA Online once. I'm sure I played Gran Turismo 7 a handful of times. I replaced gaming with reading, and surprisingly I'm feeling my age. With sim racing, I have to think and react quickly to whatever's happening so naturally I'll feel a burst of energy once I put the controller down. As for reading, I'm ready for a nap after twenty to thirty minutes. 

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I am forever thankful that people for the most part behave differently in real life than they do online. I rediscovered that people that are perpetually judgmental, bitter, and angry are a huge turnoff. I'm smart enough to realize that can happen at any age and any gender someone identifies as, but holy shit there's a lot of angst in my age bracket when it comes to online forums. Not to mention the incompatibility when it comes to physical activity and... yes, that too.

If my recent online experiences are to be believed, I should forsake having a relationship with a woman my own age and fall into the arms of someone younger... or perhaps a man? I used to answer online profiles for one night stands when I was younger, and honestly I'm not against the idea if the right situation comes up.

This is frustrating as hell. Perhaps I should adopt another cat and call it a day?